"Will I lose my dignity? Will someone care? Will I wake tomorrow from this nightmare?"

The new year bring lots of opportunity. It brings the ability to start something new; to make a decision that this year brings something more than the last. So, this year, I have made a few petty new years resolutions, no soda, run a half marathon.. but there's one that I hope will be life changing.
Over the past few days I've realized how caught up in myself I have been the past few weeks even the past semester. Where I've learned a lot about who I am and what God has caught me to do, I've noticed that I became the center of my attention. I was worried about myself and about if I was okay. If I had the adequate amount of friends to be cool, or if I was happy. And then how could I fix it for my better if it was askew. Now I don't think the semester was horrible I enjoyed it and did learn a lot, but in doing all this stuff above. I lost myself. I've been thinking about my identity: who I am, who I am called to be, and what makes this up? I felt like when I was home, my identity was found in how involved I was at church, or the great Christian school I went to, or the great people I surrounded myself with. When all this was gone at college and people and professors didn't know what I would think about issues or where I stood on the subject, I found myself wondering the same thing. I wasn't sure of who I was. I started looking for myself in other places. Where I didn't completely change and I'm very much the same me, I did seem to loose a passion of mine. Caring for people.
The title above is from the movie Rent. It is a musical about people barely making it by in life, gayness, and aids. Where these are touchy subjects, I love the realness the movie brings to them. In this song, I found the cry of the world: "Will someone care?" That is what people are looking for. Someone to care. And that is where my new years resolution comes up. I resolve to care more. To listen more intently. To show Christ's love. To be focused on others. To truly care. That is what humanity craves. That is what my Savior showed me and that is what I have been called emulate through Christ's death. This in my identity which does not change with people or times. It stays the same rooted in my Creator who is everlasting and unchanging.
Lord, I ask that you guide me in this desire to care for people how you care for them, to see people how you see them, and to love how you loved. Without you my efforts are in vain, and in my weakness your strength is shown.